DB / Detach- Will we ever piece it together

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Steve- Found this. I hate limbo. But this is good perspective.

I hated limbo. There were times I wanted to blow everything up because I hated limbo so much. Then a DB vet here told me that "limbo is the gift of time". Changed my whole perspective. You have to have patience. Let the process work, and stop doing things that hurt your sitch.

I am back to DBing. Not responding much. W had test for her job today said she thinks she failed... of course. I have been supportive and primary caretaker for D4 the last 10 days or so. But now trying to fully committed to DB / LRT.

W facetimes me just now. Which we have agreed to do 1x per day to talk to D4 around dinner or just before dinner time. Says oh did you get a haricut it looks really.... stops. Doesnt want to compliment me... kind of think bitc* is crazy. She mentions I dont do anything in response to my upcoming plans- work meetings, new business opportunities, alumni game tomorrow, to NY next week. Hawaii next month. I wanted to say well is that the life you want because my lifes great and getting better... but I held back.

I will not be paying support until W decides to talk and give clear decisive info on what she wants. She has said IDK for 15 months. If she wants to D we go to mediation and figure out support with attorney. If she wants to talk about R then we can have a positive interaction and I am willing to pay support if she chooses to work on our MR.

I am on the lease for her rental... may be open to paying just the rent which is $1000 less than Im paying now that would likely be child support.

Just a quick update. Off to the gym.