Thank you Ginger for your kind words. Been back at work and it's a bit hectic. Ex has officially moved in with GF. Kids haven't been staying at their dad's house for a month now. Now him and GF have a dog. It's funny how history repeats itself for him. It's the same pattern as with me and it's what he had planned to do with OW 2 (didn't get the chance to get a dog).

In a way I'm glad that he has settled down as it will provide stability to my kids. I'm no longer raw. Still get that sharp blade going into my heart when kids come back saying that they have done things with him and her (they are the things I have always wanting us to do as a family). I guess GF has a good influence on him. He has even given up playing his favorite sports for her whereas he has always blamed me when I asked him to stop (not completely but away matches) when I just had a new born. Oh well I hope he has found the One for him.

As for me I have started to dip in the online dating world. Wow that is scary. It seems that I only attract the strange ones😂.

Has everyone felt like this: I would like to be with someone but on the other hand I have a good life on my own and I am not prepared to be hurt again. Very contradictory feelings for me.

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