TRIGGERS. The TRIGGERS are so bad. I know I sound crazy. But something was just randomly said and I immediately felt my stomach drop, pictured my H, and felt myself start breathing heavy and feel serious anxiety. Sometimes it is such an overwhelming feeling. Thats how I felt with BD and soon after, I havent felt like that in a while but wow when it hits, it hits.
Cannot BELIEVE what my life has become and how far I feel from my H. I cant understand why he is creating even more distance all of a sudden. Its necessary I know, but its tough. I know I am spinning and just letting this all take over. Going to go outside and take a few deep breaths.
