Im really finding, throughout days like today where I am not hearing from him, a huge fear really is that he is pulling away to try to detach as much as he can and give himself fully to OW. Makes my stomach turn. It is good to hear that this is a common fear. Hearing other people felt this way as well and have gotten through it, helps me to start trying to let go of that fear. Neffer gave me a bit of a wake up call saying his W would take him back easily each time. I did that also, more than once. And Im wondering if by doing that I have made him feel like I will always be here. So in the meantime he will try to make it work with OW, who probably wont put up with his crap, and then im over here being the nice pushover who seems weak and not myself.
I will continue being cordial of course, but I plan to continue pulling away no matter how unnatural it feels.
