Even just reading that back, I think my H always maybe even felt like I took care of him. I handled everything, I made sure we continued to grow, buying a house, etc. And I think he wants to take care of someone and maybe felt like I wouldnt let him. But I cant tell you how much that hurts. Because ALL I ever wanted was for him to take care of me. And instead of being there when I was pregnant and caring for me, he was gone in another city and found another woman.
It was like ALL I wanted was for him to take care of me and instead he went and found other people to take care of. And I felt this immediately after first OW, and when I begged and tried to show him I needed him, he pulled away even more of course. I was put in a very impossible position.He was everything to me, he was the man of my dreams and the man of my life and the man who I went to for EVERYTHING. And now hes becoming someone elses man and its enough to literally make me have an anxiety attack so ill stop here. Going to re-read Steves response this morning, it helps me a lot.
