Here we go again.

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So fast forward 2 years. We still do this activity where we met om. He isn't around. They moved out of state. I would always get depressed when we did this but I figured I could tough it out. But it was kind of like ptsd. In August we got in a big fight and we didnt speak for several days. One of these days happened to be her bday. I know I am an a**!! She goes out with her sister and bil on Saturday. No calls no texts. She does not come home until 7am on sunday. Some guy OM2 dropped her off at the end of the driveway. Of course she was spewing how we need a D.

This is when I found this site. I already knew that begging and pleading and crying do not work. Of course that does not mean that I don't still do all of those things still. I moved to the spare bedroom for a couple weeks until I read about Sandi telling LBS to take it back. I struggled because I wanted to be nice. Read a book on NGS, thats me. But I told her I am moving back because I did nothing wrong. She agreed and moved to the spare.

I told her the other morning to call the lawyer because I do not want to do this anymore. She started running the numbers and got mean and sarcastic. She will have to pay me $$ and I have the health insurance so she would have to get her own. A D would not be good for her! I tod her its not what I want but I cant stop her. She was going to call lawyer later that day. (Still has not called). She ended up making dinner and we had a good night. She talked about taking our new dogs on a vacation but then caught herself when I asked about it.

She is still texting om2 usually just stuff about what he is doing during the day. Just kinda friend stuff. Her phone is unlocked and she says I can look at it but the fact that she is still in contact with him pisses me off and i have told her so.

This process is soooo slow. She touches me while walking by or calls me hun and I automatically think problem are over. We are back together. But this is going to take alot of work and counseling.