You are getting some great advice from Blu. I agree with what she has conveyed to you.
I realize you have only been here a short time, so we have to give you some grace. It is much easier to see from the outside when emotions aren't involved.
Do you journal? Have you set any goals? Do you have a GAL calendar?
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa