Texted business and finances some more with W. Had to cancel one October trip due to finances. W suggested I go and see my friend. Told her that I will not go when friend and her spouse are working on their marriage. Clarified that I do not want to borrow their problems and bring it back to our house. I told her that I will plan on something. W acknowledged it. She made more small chat. I answered. Talked more about finances and discussed sitting down and ironing out our needs vs. wants. No acknowledgements. Just received pictures of D4 in dress for a class.
I tried to show that I was not depressed or sad through my texts, just busy. Change from what I used to do because I'm realizing that being and acting pitiful and "Woe is me" is not attractive. That being said, it's something I have to think about doing/not doing, so I'm still learning and growing.
Going to lift tonight and plan on reading a bedtime story to D4. Other than that...I have no clue what I'm doing tonight. I may study, I may edit my pictures from my recent trip, but I don't have plans with anyone tonight. Meetup is suggesting divorce/separation support groups. So...that's a no go.
Even sitting idle is torture. I know that I can't expect growth and progress daily and regularly, but I still long for my desired resolution while I continue to work on GAL, 180, and Detaching. My loneliness is making it really hard...and desperate. And that's not good.
