I´m sorry you are feeling this way. You know, cycles can also move up or down so anyway it´s up to you where you are going to be standing. You can be on the up, surfing them or down there, getting drowned.
I love surfing, do you?
Nope.
But I get the analogy. I just never thought I would have to encounter the same awful waves again. I thought this was past me. And it's not. It's back and it's just as awful as I remembered it.