Burned, that’s pretty great! You sound like a pro!
I wish I didn’t feel like I have to be so ahead of myself. I wish I could kind of just sit back and take things as they come. He is, why can’t I? He’s not all stressed out worrying about this. I am because I’m constantly afraid for the next bomb to drop.
I want to just breathe, enjoy my days as much as I can without constantly feeling like I have to ready myself for what he’s going to say next that makes my stomach flip a million times.
I just heard on tv someone say “life can bring you to your knees. But if you get back up, you will always find love.” Interesting and so true I’m sure. I hope the love I find is with my husband. But I can’t do that alone.
Litb, thank you again. You’re right. I think I need to address the constant disrespect. I just also feel like it will get me nowhere.
I just wish I could stop worrying so much about what he’s going to hurt me with next. I feel like I can get through not having him, I can make it through that. It’s the fear of when the next shoe will drop and bring me to my knees all over again. I don’t want to discuss custody with him, I want us to figure out our daughter and her schedule for now and when Agents turns a year we can revisit it if he has his own place etc. I’d like to get his word on that and him STICK to it. Bc he hasn’t stuck to any of his other words
Maybe I need a breather. Just see where he takes it and let go and let God.
