Japanese restaurant by yourself. Sit at the sushi bar. Eat some raw fish you've never eaten before (I recommend octopus sashimi to start, great texture). Have a beer or some green tea. Drink your tea mindfully. Watch them prepare all of the different rolls.

You are looking forward to the day you go to an event with W and she can't stop looking into your eyes. It doesn't matter that she doesn't like sushi. Say no to bad experiences with today's W. Say yes to sushi and to future good experiences with the W she will become.

Always remember the Stockdale Paradox: "You must never confuse faith that you will prevail in the end—which you can never afford to lose—with the discipline to confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be."

Your strength comes from saying no. It's easy to say yes. Do you have it in you?

Edit: started crying after I re-read this.

Last edited by burned; 09/17/18 08:04 PM. Reason: emotional rollercoaster
H: 35 W: 33
M: 11 T: 13

4/10/18: I discovered A and confronted ("BD1")
6/23/18: I moved out
8/31/18: MC ends ("BD2")