Need Guidance moving from new comer to MLC,

[marina7]

Kyh,

Thank you.
Not much has happened in this side.
Mediation was a waist we heading to trial as
you know W doesn't want to agree to anything

I lately been back in depressed I feel like
nothing is moving fast enough to keep our
3 kids together in the process
Our kids are breaking and crying.

S9 cries himself to sleep because s10 bed is empty
S9 yesterday just cried and cried mommy I miss s10 he
is my big brother and my best friend.
I replied I know baby I am sorry your hurting so
much. Mommy will get you Trios back together
soon. Just know this mommy is trying. You and
D10 and s10 are the best thing happened in my life. I started
Humming and s9 fell asleep in my arms.

I got in the shower and screamed and cried so much. This pain is hard
My kids are hurting and I can't fix there pain. I can't make there
Heart not hurt. I am inside dying because I can't fix my kids pain.

But I know God has a plan
I will follow his plan

One day at a time
One hour at a time
One second at a time
One minute at a time

And I remind myself
Is ok to not be ok..