We all been there, I never in my life thought about ending life But on BD I felt that would be better I didn't eat or slept and W kept monstering more and more W even told me go kill myself. Yes my W did say this to me. I literally felt death.
I drove to church and knee in front of God I was not in church for like 2yrs I cried and cried I felt God wrapping hos arm around me. I felt him breathing I felt his presence so close. I knew I had a purpose. I was determined to prove W I have reason to live God was first, then for me and my kids
I swear it won't go away over night but you will ve ok one day at a time Even if your not religious go to divorce groups that saved me.
I know you might feel your going crazy, but your not , is not your fault.
I wish we could give our social media or emails so you can email us for Support. I know you need all the support and we are here.
Where you at so I can see if time zone.
Remember we are here and you are here for a purpose we all have a Purpose.
At BD Lesbian marriage Me39,W36 S9,D9,S8 adopted all three Together almost 10yrs Bomb Drop - April 2017 W movedout - May,2017 OW June,2017 Currently 2018 Me40, W38 S10,D10,S9