Lane, it is tough. Ive been with this woman my entire adult life and im 40. I honestly have no clue how to live life without her. Dont get me wrong, im building, working my 180's, and truly working on GAL, but its a process and i need to step it up to the next level.

Neffer, your right, its going to take time. I look forward to the day i dont hurt over this and when its not constantly on my mind. Im going to step up my DB efforts this week and that starts with me.

Mornings are so damn tough for some reason. I wake up and live the same nightmare over and over. This week im going to get a planner/organizer. Ive been doing really good with my to do lists, but i want to take it to the next level. I want to schedule my day down to the hour and maximize my days. Im going to do everything possible to make sure i have the greatest chance at being successful.


Together:20 years
M:3 years
Me:40
WW:40
S15
A suspected:5/17
AC:5/18
BD:8/18
WW in full blown R w/ OM
Still under same roof