Up early again. Maybe another coincidence that I need to do my morning prayers. So I did them. Before that I was in a dream in which I was in a (seemingly) legit massage parlor. I was met by a middle-aged woman who gave me a menu of services. One of the services involved drinking a relaxing tea while cuddling with her. I told her about my sitch and how it's been so long since I've been touched and that I could use some skin to skin contact. She left the room to get ready...and then I woke up. I woke up realizing that it has been months since I have had any skin-to-skin contact. And I'm heartbroken at the thought of having to wait at least many months more. No one knows how much longer I have to endure this. Growth is amazing, and I'm thankful that I am able to accomplish things that I never thought possible, but I would just like a reprieve from this. Whether it's a form of physical affection or something else (safe and healthy), any prolonged distraction so that I can take my mind off of this completely would be wonderful right about now.
My post is screaming "He's desperate." Yep, I know. That's why I'm getting this out here rather in real life.
