I am giving him the freedom to have his affair though, I am not standing in his way, asking anything of him. I don’t ask what he does, where he goes, where he sleeps, nothing. I told him a week ago I know about her and he said there is no one and I basically said “I already know. It is what it is. We only need to communicate about our daughter from here on out”. And I have stuck to that. Haven’t brought up OW since.
Thanks for saying I’m doing good. I am trying. It’s just hard to feel like I’m doing good when I’m not getting the results I’d like. But I know I can’t control him or his anger that he’s directing at me.
Church was great. Went with my family and then we all went to lunch after once I dropped d off at home. I had a nice day. It was just not the same without having my baby girl with me and then H ruins it with all his mean texts. I just wish things were different. His moods are a rollercoaster right now and everything is directed at me because I think he’s too prideful to just say he’s feeling confused and hurt and he IS seeing someone else and doesn’t really know what to do right now or what he wants. If he was honest with me and could chill out, we would be able to have a really great honest discussion like we’ve always been able to. But when he’s this mad I can’t get through the barrier. So I don’t really know how to slow down the speeding divorce train that he’s driving
