During our son's drop-off back to the house, I noticed that H doesn't look me in the eye. It's a bad weekend so I was feeling low. I'm fighting hard have patience and "let go" so I can take care of me. I do okay when I'm keeping busy or out of the house, but I can't get used to him not looking me in the eyes when we talk. It's almost like he's afraid of me. We we're quiet after making some conversation about our son but then it was a little awkward.
I hate this MLC stuff and wish it would hurry up and go away but I know it's a process he has to go through. Sometimes I want to ask him things but I know it will spook him so I keep the conversations casual and only about our son.
I know I'm bad at DBing but I've been good with not chasing him with questions. I did have a good cry after he left. I miss him so much. I told him I was letting him go to go be happy but he does not look happy at all, and I know I'm not, every since I started to move toward "letting go to let God" I feel empty and sad. I know it's for the best but I'm scared this will push him away. I know the books say to have faith in the process but it's hard sometimes.
Together for 13 years, married for 8. H is 46 I'm 40 S is 6 Bombdrop in April 2018 Still in limbo as of 2019
I told him I was letting him go to go be happy but he does not look happy at all, and I know I'm not, every since I started to move toward "letting go to let God" I feel empty and sad. I know it's for the best but I'm scared this will push him away. I know the books say to have faith in the process but it's hard sometimes.
