Hello par4me

Good on you for seeking help.

You have a desire to gain some tools to cope with your feelings, your obsession. Again another good thing.

You have a counselor appointment this week, very good.

Focus on yourself, and just breathe. I have been here too, you will get through this.

I agree with Cadet, MarvinF, Gordie, and job. You, par4me, are the most important person in all of this. Focus on you, seek and get the help you need.

Please do continue to post.

Feelings are fleeting.
Be better, not bitter.
Love the person, forgive the sin.