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..If I just move on and do what I need to do, im thinking she will notice. Not that it matters. I am starting to not care if she does or not.

This ^^^ is what you need to do. We all know it is difficult. Once you are thinking in a healthy manner you will be better able to decide what you really want. Getting dumped is horrible; and as men, we often feel like we need to fix it. Don't waste your time.

Fix you.

BTW, good job on the encounter. Realize that WWs like to test and see if they still have a chance. It doesn't even mean they will want a chance. They just want to know it is an option. Remember don't trust what you hear.

You might try to limit these encounters because it will only make it confusing and harder on you.

She might change. Tarot cards and crystals don't sound very positive but regardless you should proceed as advised in order to be in a place to decide once things stabilize.

This is the first time after being around her that I haven't felt completely devastated once she was gone. Like I sort of know where I stand at least. My emotions are still all over the place for sure. Sad one minutes, optimistic the next. The time when that all ends cant come soon enough.

I wish I could limit seeing her. But with our schedules and the kids its almost a daily thing. I really could use a break from it. But I cannot currently afford child care. She watches the during the day and I have them at night. I am actively looking for other options so I can cut down on the amount of times I have to see her during the week.

I dont know if i put much stock in that brand of spirituality, but if it helps her in some way, i would support it. its all interesting at least, and I am certainly open to it.