He’s seeiously being horrible to me and I don’t understand why. He was mad at me and then started being nicer and now all of a sudden today he wants to be this way again. He sent me a pic of him and the baby earlier, he was smiling, it was such a sweet pic. And then he said the thing about out of town, I said ok. And now it’s straight misery. I come home, he barely says 2 Words. I ask if she’s seemed hungry, he said she’s been asleep a lot and that he fed her sweet potatoes twice. I said ok I needed to either come feed her or pump so I can just pump.
So I get the pump and go to leave and say bye and he says “so you’re not going to feed her?” And I said oh! I can. And he says no it’s fine I’ll handle it. And I said no it’s ok I’ll feed her.
Took her into the bedroom to feed her. He says the printer thing. I said ok nicely. I finish feeding and he’s in the kitchen making himself food. I say to him the pic he sent earlier was cute. He nods and says nothing. I go put her down on the floor to play and I’m getting ready to leave and I ask if he has any time suggestions for me to be back, he nods his head no and I said “alrighty. Well y’all have fun” and I left. It’s like literally EVERYTHING I do pisses him off. I feed her, I don’t feed her, the clothes I wear, me leaving, me being there. I don’t even know anymore! What does he want from me?! I’ve given him all this freedom that he wanted and he acts like I’m the bad guy for not letting him live at our house. I let him see the baby whenever he wants and he treats me like crap. I’m pleasant, I’m polite, I’m not on his ass, I let him have his time with the baby without me in his hair. I make my own plans for those times.
I’m even about to have a divorce discussion with him this week when ITS NOT WHAT I WANT AT ALL! He thinks we can just sign paperwork and be done. I’m going to sit down with him and let him take the reigns and I’m going to see what he wants our next move to be and then I will decide how to react. Steve has said that anger means he still cares. And I agree with that. But it certainly makes this process miserable. You’d think he would be nice to me considering he knows he’s about to flip my world upside down yet again with this divorce discussion.
