Woke up first thing this morning feeling bad, thinking about where he’s sleeping, etc. but read Sandi’s rules to try to feel better and keep me in my place. Heading to church soon with the baby and he should be at our house when we get back, so I’ll be sure to look wonderful. If anyone has any motivating words of wisdom on this Sunday I could use them. He will be at our house all day with the baby so I’ll be off finding things to do.
Surrender your sitch to the higher power (God, Allah, Creator, mysterious force belief etc.). Whoever you believe in, allow yourself to surrender to that power.
When I decided to re-visit my spiritual roots, I decided to go in with an open heart. I have been comforted quite a bit since I have started and things have been slowly turning around. Other aspects unrelated to my life have been seeing things and events that I never thought would happen. Is it God working? Maybe. I feel like it is. What does God have planned in regards to this sitch? I don't know. I pray for R. I do it multiple times per day. But outside of that, I don't control those circumstances.
You have been blessed with a strong mind, a caring heart, a beautiful child who loves her (his?) mama, and a fierce determination to go through this hell. You have gone this far. Keep going and know you have company. The higher power is watching, guiding, and caring for us.
