I know the answer. I am just having a bit of a hard time accepting the truth.

Detachment is rough. I know I am not there yet.

Was not focusing on myself at all, in fact was hyper-focused on her. I am much worse for it. Putting a stop to it this week, but the thoughts still run through my head when they want. I process them and then shut them down as quickly as possible.

GAL has been going on from the start. But I was involving her too much in it all.

180's are coming slowly, I do backslide now and then. I know she notices.

M: 29 W: 28
D: 8 S:1
M: 10 T: 11
BD1: 8//15 (physically separate)
Back together: 4/16
BD2: 3/18, physically separate 6/18)
Here we are again.