So I blew it last night, my sister is visiting and it has been fun, we knew my H was going to meet us out for drinks when he got back from business trip ( he got an earlier flight out which i thought was a good sign) he also told me to use a gift certificate for dinner that he had. Which was nice, but as the evening progressed I was getting anxious about meeting up with him, just feeling weird around him in my own house and sad that the last time my sister was here it was before the BD. I tried to act normal when we were out and he and my sister were chatting away and i couldnt help but look at him and feel like....who are you? He was charming, thoughtful, etc but I knew once we my sister went to bed and we got into our bed he would not touch me. Which is what happened. It is just so bizarre to me. I didnt initiate anything because I felt stupid after having a bit of an attitude towards him and then didnt want to seem needy even though I am. I feel like he knows how much this hurts me but does it anyway. So he is out now walking the dogs and I am here reaching out....im not sure if he is having an EA, dont see him on his phone as much. Other than his business trips he always comes home at night. Wears his wedding ring....found out the DR book might be another 7 business days till it gets here. Just feeling low, I feel like we are strangers and dont know how to get back to who we used to be.
