I definitely don’t think you’re being too critical at all! I genuinely want all the suggestions anyone can give me! I’m open to doing what I need to do. I have a very hard time with tough love and I’m trying but it’s a hard balance when trying not to give him any ammunition and also trying to show him I know I deserve better. I know there’s a balance there, finding it is what I’m having trouble with. And he doesn’t make it any easier. If I don’t respond to texts quickly he assumes I’m ignoring him and gets rude, it’s so frustrating. He’s very self serving right now, not thinking of anyone but himself. But throwing me crumbs. I’m on to him, I’m just trying to rise above it. He can think whatever he wants, but I’m hoping in time he will see I’m not backing down from my boundaries. I’m not asking anything of him. I’m letting him have all the freedom he wants, he’s living whatever life he wants to live. And when he’s still miserable months from now and doesn’t have me to blame, maybe he will see it’s not really all on me.
Wishful thinking I’m sure. But maybe by then I’ll have embraced this all for the opportunity I’ve been told it is.
