I love that movie, I will look at speech tonight. I am sure it will give me a little motivation.
I would love have a crystal ball and see where this would go. I will really try to look at it as an opportunity. Next week is going to be extremely hard, I am anxious about it and the discussion we will have. But I am just REALLy going to try to be the lighthouse, be strong, even if I am completely faking it. I find that when we have emotional talks, sometimes I end up being the one to tell him it will all be okay. We will get through it. That is what I was telling him last week when he was texting me how sad he was and how he handled this all wrong. I said to him that we will learn to be the best coparents ever and that can be our focus for now. I think when I show him strength like that, he sees my changes. Before I was a wimpering heart broken beggar.
Even if inside im dying, I am trying to show strength on the outside. Let him know if we MUST Divorce in his mind, then at least let us figure out custody amongst ourselves. I hope to keep the situation as calm as possible. So I can already see if he goes into the discussion with the anger he has shown this week, it will be a disaster. Hopefully he will have calmed down a bit by discussion time. Again, I cant control him and how he chooses to handle this all. I can only control how I handle my end and my reactions to his decisions.
I hope to just get through my days okay. Its awful to feel this upset, but by night time I start to feel better. Mornings a daytime can be rough.
