Today is a new day. Trying to pull myself out of a rut. I've been dwelling on things I can't control. I don't like these feelings of doubt. I hope it's just a temporary and I can get past. It's mentally exhausting and I know it needs to stop. I haven't heard from W since last Monday. I don't plan on reaching out today to exchange kids. I knew this week was going to be rough and it exceeded my expectations for sure. It definitely pushed me to my limits. Last night I went and reread my thread and soaked in some of the advice. I think it helped a bit. So, I'm just hanging in there and being patient. Would like to get out and GAL. I know I sound down, I guess the marathon can ware a person out once in a while. Hopefully some good things will fall my way soon.
ME 47 W 38 M17 T20 Separated 5/20/18 D-bomb 7/9/2018 Nothing Filed 4 kids ages 6, 10, 14, 15