My heart goes out to you and your family for the loss of your loved one. I pray that she looks down and sees that she has no worries about watching over you from time to time.
Projection is a stinker, isn't it? You have to admire the thought process of which they use to justify why their life is not going the right way (a touch of sarcasm there).
I have looked back a few weeks in my sitch and can pinpoint when I haven't DB'd like I should. But DB is a process. It is not an exact process as it is not mistake proof. But if the process is followed, less and less non DB actions become apparent.
Keep the chin up my friend. Its not the end of the world. Only when you eyes close for the very last time, and that time is not coming soon!
Be well!
Triple J
Things were different then. All is different now. I tried to explain, somehow..........
Eddie Vedder (Pearl Jam)