I really am not cracking, but i do thank God for this platform to have people help me through this. I hate him flipping this and being angry with me, thats what frustrates me. I think the GAL is getting to him more than I thought it would, and more than he thought it would. I used to look at leaving everynight when got here and think it was an inconvenience and frustrating and made things even worse between us because we wouldnt talk. But now I am embracing it in a way. Thinking, okay, what can I schedule for tonight for myself to do for a few hours. Last night was a massage, tonight will be the book store to get a few books and grab some dinner there and read in the cafe.
Him even mentioning the possibility of me seeing someone else is laughable, I dont know when he possibly thinks I have had time to meet someone and see them, but maybe when I leave when hes here he thinks that. I dont know. he is so off but thats okay.
