Ready, I am going to have to save those responses and come back to this when I need them, because they are super helpful. The entire thought of a D convo honestly brings me down so much, so I am trying to not focus SO much on that, but I need to be prepared. I really hope he can stop being so rude to me. I know that the anger stems from him feeling a loss of control, but it really s*cks that he puts that on me instead of acknowledging what hes doing that is making him feel this way. He puts it all on me, as if what IM doing is making him unhappy. And when he is convincing himself of that, he is just going to continue associating me with negativity in his life, when I am literally the one trying to make sure he sees the baby as much as possible, reaching out to him to make a schedule, being polite to him when I absolutely dont have to be. How do you go from telling someone you are sorry for everything, you wish you handled it differently, to then getting caught seeing another woman, to then THANKING your W for being nice, to then being rude to her and telling her you have nothing to say to her and youre so upset WITH HER?!
I know nothing the WS does makes sense, but what in the world.
Pain, thank you again. Its good to know longer stretches of good days may be in my future. I am so envious of the convo you had with your dad. I can only IMAGINE what mine would say about all of this. He always put everything in perspective and made me feel so safe no matter WHAT happened. We lost him a few years ago to cancer and it really did a number on me. But I have my older brothers and my mom to keep my head on straight and they will help me through all of this whenever I decide to open up more about it all.
I just went out and mowed the front lawn on my work break. It was ridiculously long and H was supposed to mow it Sunday, before OW issues came up. Ill have to get to the back yard tomorrow
