Pain, I am glad you are having a good day, hold on to THAT! Bc they are few and far between for me at least.
You seem like a very strong person, and thank you for saying I am handling it well. I have really tried to be the bigger person as much as possible over the last year. Ive done my fair share of begging, pleading, promising to change, but I was never really mean or nasty to him at all.
I have tried to handle this with as much grace as humanly possible. He knows it too, whether he would like to admit it right now or not. He has told me I have handled this all so well. Too bad he lets himself forget that and treat me like sh*t right now when HES doing somehting wrong
I know where you're coming from kech. As you continue to navigate through this hell, you will start to have more good days than bad. Last week I had a period of 8 good days before I crashed last weekend. Three days later (and a firm call to my father later) I'm on the uptick again. I'm hoping to make it to 10 good days before I hit my next low. Small goals, but goals nonetheless. I have GAL stuff planned for the next month. So I'll be busy. Detaching is still a major work in progress, but as Steve and my DB coach have stated, it's a marathon not a sprint.
Keep a steady pace. Don't speed up and lose momentum. Don't lose hope. We need to tell ourselves that.
