(I leveled out and am in a seemingly good mood, so I'm taking full advantage of it)
I just want to point out that as painful as this sitch has been for you, you're doing many things right. Being the better person (as I'm learning more daily) is much harder. The temptation to stoop to their level is so much easier when you want immediate relief (again, speaking from experience. If you read my sitch, you will see how often I beg for relief from this pain). But I'm learning and growing daily. I'm learning about my flaws and addressing them. I'm working on becoming a better, more attractive man. A better father. A better employee. And a better lover. I'm seeing the light more and more often as I continue this journey. When I sink, I hurt. And I express my hurt here, in my car, alone at home, with my IC, anywhere I deem safe. Then I dust myself off, stand up again and continue to step forward.
My W cheating was more than just about how unhappy we both were. Her cheating may have saved my life, as f*cked up as that sounds.
But oh GOD, is life saving painful. So extremely painful.
