My talk with Laurie has to be about goals--and whether my goal is 1) to save my M, 2) do what is best for the kids (putting aside MY thinking that 1 satisfies this objective; or 3) simply maintaining my presence and current R with the kids in the hone, regardless of the state of our M.
Of course, since I care more about sports than my W, I went to see the Yankees on our anniversary last night with my dad. I did acknowledge the day with her in the morning--but this led to a barrage of what was wrong with the M (karen--you were right). I also saw on our home phone that she was calling OM last night--which leads back to separation.
I have 18,000 reasons for staying and not leaving, but me leaving while an EA is on doesn't seem like a worthwhile endeavor. Is that reasonable or just anger? Moreover, this morning I told her that I wanted to take S9 to a game on a night she plans (I was offered great seats) and my folks could babysit. She then bit my head off (in front of S9) saying there was no R between her and them and I never should have asked them.
Ahh-as I type she just called to say that she was crying this morning after I left--and before the kids tell me-she wanted to explain that she felt bad about what happened and thought I was turning her into the bad guy with my parents. Is this the rest of my life???
