Lane, there's just no way to not be hurt when you know your wife is off with another man. I wish I could follow your situation more closely but I can't believe she'd take a trip and leave you with four kids. How can she enjoy her time without her kids?! How can someone be so selfish? These WW spouses don't just abandon us they also abandon our innocent kids. Your situation seems severe. It's good you're doing everything you can do and you're trying to control your thoughts but I also know the acute pain and devastation that you're feeling are normal feelings for these circumstances. Let's think positive and hope that on this trip your wife and OM will get into a big fight, break up, and your wife will suddenly wake up and realize what she's done.
