Sjohn6, I agree with Gordie and I will add this --
Your love is beautiful beautiful beautiful and full of truth -- you love what was/is most true! You love her through her darkness! How I wish someone would feel that way about me.
It's a hard cross to carry (and believe me, I totally understand as I carry the same one!) but it makes you shine with light. You are shining into my darkness right now.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.
