Hey Kech,
Still a newbie here and I do follow what is going on. You have some strong support on here.
Here is what I think:
You cannot worry, think, contemplate, mind read, or anything of the sort on what your H is thinking or doing right now. He may be just fine when he leaves, or he may be just miserable as well. Who knows, and I've read this a few times and I have been told this many times on here:

It does not matter!

The longer you dwell on him, the longer this will take. You concentrate on you and your new baby! Be the BEST Kech you can be. Your H sees nothing but happiness and you at your best. Keep doing your GAL, this is good because it keeps your mind off of your situation. If you read through mine, you can see I was dwelling on everything that was happening, everything that might/could happen and there were those imaginary things in my head that were happening only in my head that I was worried about. You know what it changed: Absolutely Nothing!

I still have bad days. Sometimes many bad days in a row. But I can feel myself detaching and not worrying so much. There will always be things while you are in this state that will set you off onto the emotional roller coaster. When the real ones come, be prepared. Don't show any negative reactions. Take a breath. If you need to get out of the situation as quickly as you can, regroup and then respond (if a response if even needed, sometimes the best response is to do nothing. VERY hard for us LBS to do but this needs to become your "goto" response. Nothing).

Keep your head high, show him what he is giving up! Be the lighthouse.

As with everyone on here, I wish you the best.


M51 W44
T21 M18
D14 S11
BD date 9/17
W filed 02/18
W withdrew petition following week
In house separation 03/18
In Limbo and DB'ing since 03/18
W is moving out by mid Nov 2018
A drawing up paperwork 11/18