Okay so he just got to our house. I didn’t realize he was there and I was breastfeeding the baby in the tv room. When he walked in I quickly covered up, which I normally would not do in front of him, and said I didn’t realize he was there.
He immediately went into the bathroom and washed his face or something and then came back out, the baby smiled at him, and he walked away with her and I realized he was crying. He kept hiding his face from me and went into her nursery. I remained upbeat, as if I didn’t notice. Not sure if that’s what I am supposed to do but my only other option is to ask if he’s okay, to which he would say yes and be annoyed most likely so my 180 is to say nothing about it. I continued doing what I was doing in the kitchen and then said I was going to head out.
His eyes were swollen from crying and still watering, so I kissed the baby goodbye and said I’d be home around 8:15, is that cool? He shook his head ya, almost annoyed and that was it.
I’m SO confused yet again. Just last night he’s thanking me for all of this and how I’m handling it and then today he seems annoyed, sad, borderline mad at me. I do not get it. I feel like the sadness comes from him seeing the baby and realizing he’s missing out, but why does he seem so frustrated with me all of a sudden? He’s literally like a rollercoaster of emotions Around us but will then leave and go to OW bc these are HIS choices. Why am I getting the brunt of it bc HE chose to entertain other women? What’s with the crying? Is this him trying to bait me to feel bad for him? I don’t.
