Update. Went and hung out with some musician friends. Came home in time to tell S goodnight. W wanted to chat about potty training. She was an emotional wreck. Crying and questioning if she's a good mother. She's Beena fine mother and I reassured her. We developed a more rigorous potty training plan.
Went to bed. Still having a really hard time sleeping. I'm feel like a walking 24 hr panic attack. Mostly obsessing about OM and losing time with my son in a D. Can't stop wondering if she's talking to OM. I want to spy, Snoop, and ask. But I'm fighting it. I'm mostly in an ok mood. Work is going well.
No texts from her at all today. Came home from work and everyone was sleeping. W organized and cleaned the kitchen which is out of character for her.
W has a work dinner this evening. S is sick so we are going to hang. She is definitely noticing some changes in my disposition and mood. It's hard to keep it up. When I'm around her, I get weak but I'm holding strong.
