Ya I will have to read them everyday. Any suggestions for putting a goal in place for my night, just to make it through without a breakdown while he is here. I just had one in the car. A few actually, im sure other drivers were looking at me like i was crazy.

Your suggestion for keeping a song in my heart has helped. When hes here I focus on a song and kind of do what I need to do. I am thinking when he gets here around 6ish I will leave and either go to the gym or to get a massage. stay out of the house for about an hour and a half, 2 hours. Then come home around the babys bedtime and tell him im getting into bed, which is his cue to leave.

I should be cordial correct?I go back and forth on if I should even say a word to him. But I feel like being cordial is my best bet. Any suggestions welcome