Thanks to all who have given me advice and concrete suggestions to do at this time.
Just wanted to give a quick update on my sich, H came home a day early from his trip which I thought was a good sign, He got in around 9pm, I was already in bed on the my ipad ,but sleepy because I had gone to dinner with my GF’s, and had too much wine and food. So we have not seen each other in 2 weeks but have been texing and had some phone calls since then,in any event my H barely looked at me when he came in the BD. He seemed tired and in a crabby mood, it bummed me out and i tried to play it cool. I honestly was falling asleep and then it seemed like he wanted to start talking, about a mutual friend who I had over, his hiking trip etc. think he realized I was out of it and we both went to sleep. I was bummed he didnt touch me and I know I was not supposed to do this but in the middle of the night I cuddled with him and he didnt turn me away. But after some time he moved on the other side of our King sized bed, and turned his back towards me. There was like 4 feet between us, later on in the night he cuddled me which was heavenly, and then we brought the dogs on the bed with us and had a big snuggle fest. So all in all a decent night but still feel alienated from him. I think the 2 weeks away were good for detaching but feel like we are estranged because of it as well. This morning he was Chatty Cathy and spent a good hour showing me pics and stories from his trip. I made sure to pay attention. But told him I needed to get to the gym. He said he was going into work and would see me tonite. So that is all I got. Still waiting for the DR to show up in the mail.
