DB / Detach- Will we ever piece it together

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I think I am just not going to pay in October and see how it goes. I have reached out to an attorney and she said since we are doing mediation everything is up to us to agree... we have not done anything through the court system and dont plan on going through court.

I may let her talk a bit. Then say something like you have been so wishy washy I dont really want to talk about anything besides D4 unless we are both agreed that we are working on piecing our marriage together... very open to input on this dialogue.

Last night I was thinking of saying something like I want a woman who is kind, caring, supportive, trustworthy, that wants to have a family (more than 1 child we always wanted 2-3), deeply cares about marriage, that wants to be sexy and intimate for me as their man... if thats not you thats ok. If it is then we have something to talk about. And then just go dark for the most part. And fulfill my 3 month promise to pay as I have through September.