MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART XII

[ItHurts]

No Steve, I'm not really in fear of rejection. Mainly because if my divorce, which let's face it, is the ultimate form of rejection, didn't ruin me for life...some girl saying no to a date isn't going to ruffle my feathers. It's mainly for the reason I stated...if a woman goes against her instincts and chases...she must really want what she's purusing. This saves me the aggravation of wasting my time. So no, I don't fear rejection because as I said, I've survived the ultimate form of rejection with my divorce that was totally unexpected. As far as me coming out and point blank asking her as you suggest...I see no need to. She left me so I don't feel like she should enjoy the luxury of me pursuing her...she needs to chase me or forget it. I don't need her, I merely want her. So if she never does then so be it. I take things as they come. I'm not desperate to get back with her...I guess that's why I am kind of carefree about it all. Yes I like this new lady enough to see her fairly often but nothing serious. Just having fun and enjoying her company.

Hi Blu, yes knowing her like I do I always sense there's something going on inside her regarding me. Meaning I don't believe she's at total peace with us just being friends. An example of this is her feeling the need to always mention that she's not dating anyone. Okay great but why would I care if I'm just your pal? It makes no sense. She obviously wants to make it clear that she's staying single for a few months. Plus remember, she would have to eat A LOT of crow with A LOT of people if she ever got back with me. That also likely plays a role in this whole thing.
But yes, I make my decisions based on my instincts regarding her and how she thinks. I just have consistently had this sense when I'm with her that she is not as content with us being just friends forever. Hard to explain but it is almost like she has to control herself from saying or doing things that she wants to do. Like she can't give in without sacrificing her desire to prove to herself that she can survive on her own.