I have neglected him for awhile now and I feel that this is the punishment I'm getting for doing so. I'm working on incorporating him back into my life and I have seen improvements in other areas.
But this...I don't know. I don't know what his plans are for us. I hope it's R because of our D4, our house, etc. I'm just afraid that it may not be. And if it's not, what more bad stuff could happen? And how much more can I take?
I'm venting primarily. I know I just have to be patient. It's just harder some days (like now). The gaps between bad days and good days are slowly getting wider, but they are just as painful.
