lh...well my history is that this would be my 2nd D. you can accept once as a life mulligan, but twice with a child? i "thought" I knew better, my IC tells me "there's something wrong with your picker" and that W is unwilling to look into herself as it's a house of cards that can't allow it. anyway I have seen the end of one be required for the start of a new, but to go through it again, with a sweet D who I love more than life and a woman I felt the same about...tough to get over the hill so to speak, i was heavily invested in this MR, but I guess I failed again.
I get what you say, I have no choice but to keep going forward, I'm just very much a hollowed out shell right now from this. i just DID NOT want to lose my W, but it is what it is so what else can I do...
2018 just through my entire life out the window, someday I guess I'll get it back. your words from experience I do recognize/realize the hope, i'm just tired of the happiness of new love only to see it destroyed when "unhappy" sets in. i think back to when I was a teenager before girls and how great it was to just be into hobbies, maybe that's what I'll revert back to.
