I would have to agree with what Timothy said. Right now is not the time. Just continue to be the best H you can be and try your best to leave her with a good taste in her mouth about you. This is the moment when you have to be at your best to really make her think about what she is doing. She will most likely only see the negative in the journal. Merrick I know how you feel, The death of your M is really coming true to you right now. Its very depressing, Ive been there, this is a really tough time you are going through but remember, you and your kids will be Ok. The way it things were wasnt working and you are doing what you think is best. Let her know how much of a mistake you think it is and you love her, this is the hardest thing you have ever had to do, you wish with every grain of your soul it could dbe different. Your honering her wish and hope she can find the peace within herself to come back.
Think of it as an oppertunity to give her some air to breath and get rid of the tension in her life. She most likely wont feel it because she is so consumed with guilt. This may help her to hit bottom with some luck.
You have tryed your best Merrick, we dont always get what we want. Its a most difficult road and I hope your W in the coming months will see the light. Im affraid thats what is most likely going to take for this to turn around. Time and distance and lots of patience to let her mend. Its your only hope. Its super hard especially when you get into the legal ramifications of it all. The attorneys will get the kettle really stired up. Be strong my freind, I know your heart is in this till the end, just take care of yourself and those kids will really be depending on you for support. Give them all the love you can. God Bless, eddy
