steve, yes I've been in IC since separation and have no plans to stop any time soon.
LH, appreciate your comments/support! i recognized soon after getting here, that the hope I really had was more about saving myself than my MR. everyone here has been wonderfully supportive towards that end. i truly hope somewhere down the line I can reach a point of happiness once again and I mean that only with regards to myself and my life. i have zero expectations of any future with OW and i think given where I'm at that's just a reflection of where I'm at.
lol well if it's 40 years down the line i'll be lucky to be alive, much less open to R with W! i definitely understand what you say in your last paragraph, I do. I don't know how long it will take me to mourn this loss and i have no desire to rush it, i'm honestly most fearful of never moving past it.
