Another topsy turvy weekend. Every time I'm ready to let go, she does something that makes me think, "Screw this; I won't let this woman force me out of my house." I still need to talk with my priest.
I won't go into the ambivalance/more of the same we had over this weekend, but I do have one dangerous gambit that I'm considering.
Since W feels so strongly that I am keeping a record to use against -- is there any value in giving her my journal (somewhat sanitized) to show that I am not hiding anything from her? Naturally, there would be a forewarning that there a lots of things in there that she might find upsetting because I used it to vent and never expected anyone to see it. Maybe I should ask if she wants to see it? Or am I just stupid?
