My wife has also completely blocked me out and is not responding to any communication so I know how that feels. I was also close to suicide myself when she disappeared overnight.
There are qualities in every human that make life worth living and the fact that you have two children will certainly allow you to continue moving forward, with or without a woman.
The pain is intense but it will decrease. Stay strong
Truthbuster.
Married 4.5, Together 6 M: 36, W: 33, no kids Separation date: 7/8/2017 Bomb dropped: 8/18/2017 Last communication: 1/8/2018 - now nothing OM confirmed - now ended (?)