Well my wife left in late May. I found out I. July that she another man had bought a house together. Our divorce was July 23 and they were moving into their home before August so I know she was cheating. I just understand what is wrong with me. This has happened twice before. Last time I was on here I was crying over someone else. This marriage couldn't be saved because the minute she walked out she quit talking or responding. I did all the book told me to. I guess that I am going dark now but that isn't going to work this time. We are in a small town and I have to get out of here before I shoot myself. I exercise but I hardly eat I don't want to move on I thought she was an angel but I won't go back to a cheater. I don't know what to do another town, get a job and go one. It [censored] and I am dying. I am close to suicide. The pain is more than I be can handle. I am haunted every minute of the day by memories and she is fine. She just replaced me and went on. I am trying to be a little do the same but I am so depressed. I don't want to go anymore with this pain. I am seeing a doctor in two days. I am scared of what I might do I will make to the doctor but I don't think that anything can be done. I truly do not like myself. I curse god and have given up on faith or a future
