After some thought about how I was feeling I think I have reached a plateau where I have finally completely detached myself emotionally from my W. This is not to say that I don't want to save my marriage but I think I have complete acceptance of the possibility of her leaving for good and I am honestly ok with that fact. I could easily pack my things at this point and leave without feeling like a failure or walking around feeling like I have been punched in the gut. We are slowly reconciling but she is still skeptical of my change and she told me last night she has a fear of us fully resuming our relationship and then me falling back into old patterns. Keeping in mind my goal is to still save my marriage I am not sure exactly what to do with this feeling I am having. I am not sure at this point what to do to perhaps bring her closer to me. I could just carry on like I have been and see where it goes or perhaps it's time for me to pull back a bit to see what happens. I have some thinking to do for sure on what the best choice is right now.
