Now I see the need to GAL. I've been at home with a very hyper D4 trying to motivate myself to so something (Trying to be cheap). I did two small tasks and have mostly been...obsessing about W and the time she is spending with OM.
My neediness is really taking a toll on my mood and I'm feeling some pain again.
I know I have made great progress since I starting DBing full force, but today is considered a fairly significant down day. I haven't crashed. And I don't have anxiety.
Just feeling really depressed. Hopeless. And sad.
I have always wanted her back. My mood is screaming desperation for her now. Not attractive at all. But I'm safe to express it safely in the confines of my house.
I'm ok. I'm working on turning it around for a better day.
